mothers day

tomorrow it is. and i am somewhat afraid. five years ago i suffered severe postpartum depression. it was frightening. anna was only about a week and a half old. the memories are vivid. but i am really pursuading myself not to visit there. so far so okay. i have been having a little fit of optimism and i hope to hang on to it through tomorrow. my children are beautiful. they deserve the best. they deserve me, their mother, to love and teach and care and play and be around for them. and i intend to do all i can to show them happiness and love (thank goodness for modern medication and psychotherapy).