i can't believe it's true (still 20 minutes later)

anna is asleep. anna is not only asleep but she is asleep in her own room and in her own bed. bedtime is not the happiest time of day in our house. i would much rather give birth to a 13 pound 12 ounce baby vaginally without an epidural (that word brings joy everytime i even think about it) than to have to face bedtime. but realities are such that bedtime cannot be avoided. she is asleep about 2 1/2 hours (at least) earlier than last night and the night before and the night before and... i am still in shock. i am not sure what to do with my time. going to bed early sounds good. people refer to her as a "difficult" child. i am not sure exactly what that is suppose to mean only perhaps she is just simply "difficult" for people (and that includes me) to handle. she is not necessarily naughty. just eager or curious or active. shawn believes she is high maintenance. i guess she may well be taking after her mother. for, i, too, am high maintenance. and difficult as well.

side note: shawns teaches the 11 year old boys at church. one of them told me today that i was lucky for i married someone who is always happy. and he is. and i am.