summer: cons and pros

cons:

• hot, hot, hot
• road construction EVERYWHERE
• hot (did i mention that?)
• sand from the sandbox in my house--EVERYWHERE
• weeds
• hot nights
• going to mesquite to visit in-laws where at midnight it is still 100 degrees and the wind blows and it feels like a giant hair dryer in your face
• road construction
• shawn tends to be stinkier on summer nights
• it's too hot to cook (really, it is)
• the swamper doesn't work well on rainy humid days
• running the dryer makes it all hotter
• kids are dirtier
• heat gives me headaches
• i am lazier (if that is possible)
• when it's hot, i am grumpier

pros:

• august 14th
• flowers
• yardwork (in the morning shade or evening shade)
• sun shines more (i don't really need my blue light in the summer)--longer days
• kids can play outside all day and not get bored
• plays, movies, concerts at the ampitheater or park
• camping
• laying on the hot cement and soaking in the sun after running in the sprinklers (a good memory from my childhood--i don't think people would like to see me running around in the sprinklers these days)
• fresh tomatoes from the garden eaten right off the vine--YUMMY
• bbq's
• summer thunderstorms
• tin-foil dinners
• flip-flops (in my day they were thongs--i don't do thongs of today(ouch))
• no school
• lazy days
• walking in the grass barefoot (it releases the poisons)

i have been making this list in my head the last couple of days. i am trying to fit optimism into my daily thought routine. i thought that focusing on my likes of the summer would help. it did. but i did have to make my list of dislikes. it's all therapy for me. i guess all in all summer ain't too bad. it also helps now that i am almost off the effexor. my core temperature is coming down. it almost feels good again. i am almost looking forward to the summer. we will see. i have one more week of effexor 37.5 mg. then will be the tell-all. i am a bit scared. i still get massive headaches randomly. and i randomly have shocks that feel like my phone on vibrate throughout my body--they don't hurt but they do startle me. and probably at least once a week i feel like i have the flu. hopefully it will all go away soon enough. it is worth trying.

anyway, happy summer!